Why do I return to Blogspot again?

Before June this year, I was using blogspot (the link can be found under “hwachongians” in the sidebar). However I was constantly irritated by the server, which often lagged or had some dunno-what problems. Several times, after I typed my entry for half an hour, I clicked “post”, and then pop out “this page cannot be found”. Oh, WTF.

Then I found MSN space. Actually I’ve got a space account last Nov or Dec when I was back in china where the blogspot is inaccessible. In June, I realized that the msn server is much more stable than the blogspot one. So I moved. Furthermore, the network system in msn spaces also the major reason for me to move as more and more people are reading my blogs, a sense of achievement.

So why do I turn back to blogspot now? Actually I also dunno. Maybe uniqueness. Lots of people are using msn spaces now. Everyday I visit more than ten spaces, of course including my own. Oh, I’m tired of the layout! Sort of “审美疲劳”. I wanna have a change, that’s it.

When I was young, I could change anything within the parents’ tolerance. As I grow older, I'm connected to more people. What I do will affect others. So when I consider changing something about myself, I have to think about the influences put on others. It’s indeed exhausting. Often the result turns out to be that I dun wanna change any more simply for the sake of others. So sad, I’m living for others more than for myself.

I think I’m a bit extreme this time. It’s less than half a quarter between considering deleting my space and making up my mind to do so. I made that announcement in my space so that the decision cannot be reversed at all. Yeah, I’m extreme and impulsive this time, because I didn't listen to others’ opinion about pros and cons. But it’s exactly the reason why I did so. Ask yourself, in recent years, how many times did you make the decision without others’ influences?


If I have made a mistake this time, let it be.